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[oedipuswreck]

. . . yes. I also feel—

[he considers . . .]

. . . I don't know how to put it. A little . . . weird.

[supersensitive]

Can you try...? A little bit... I mean-- not that it's-- not okay to feel a little weird about things, because-- it's a big deal, right? But-- I just... want to make sure that we're... that it's a good idea, for us. Do you know what I mean--?

[oedipuswreck]

[. . . reaches down to pull a comforter up over both of them, cuddling close]

Ah, you know, I'm just . . . not . . . really alright . . . in the head.

[supersensitive]

[cuddling, close and attentive]

...There's-- a lot that's happened to you... that makes things confusing, right?

[oedipuswreck]

I don't know if I'm . . . confused. I'm pretty clear about what I want.

Just . . . sometimes it's like. "Uh, Shinji . . ."

[supersensitive]

Yeah...?

[oedipuswreck]

Er . . . the things I've thought about doing . . .

[supersensitive]

...Really?

[oedipuswreck]

W-what? Really, what?

[supersensitive]

Do you just mean-- fantasies, or...?

[oedipuswreck]

Yes . . .?

[supersensitive]

...It's okay to-- like things? To want things...

[oedipuswreck]

[I'm way too young for the things I want to do to you.]

[supersensitive]

Oh-- oh, well, yeah, okay. We don't have to. But it's, um-- you--

[frowns, not really sure how to say what he's thinking]

[oedipuswreck]

. . . Ruka?

[supersensitive]

...You said it's okay, but-- if... that's too much. Whatever you're thinking. This isn't, too...?

[squeezes him, a little...]

[oedipuswreck]

I'M SAYING I WANT IT

[supersensitive]

I know! But you're saying there's also-- things you want that would be too much, right?!

[oedipuswreck]

Not—well, I mean, if I want it, too much for—what . . .

[supersensitive]

...Okay-- you were upset. And when we started talking about it, you said, "I'm not alright in the head," and then you said something about "the things I've thought about doing," and then you said "I'm too young." So-- maybe we're not talking about the same thing, but it sounded like-- it wasn't something you were okay with...? So, I was asking-- if there's other things that aren't okay, is this?

[oedipuswreck]

N-no, this is fine, you're fine, you're perfect.

[supersensitive]

...I just-- want us to be happy.

[CUDDLES...]

[oedipuswreck]

[grabbing onto him, fiercely desperate]

I-I'm so happy, I'm happy, I love you and you make me happy, I—

[supersensitive]

No-- no, no, it's okay, I love you too, I'm happy-- I just-- needed to check, you know? That we only do things that we're both happy with, that-- things are okay. I love you.

[oedipuswreck]

W-why are you so . . . good?