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[oedipuswreck]

Yes . . .?

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...It's okay to-- like things? To want things...

[oedipuswreck]

[I'm way too young for the things I want to do to you.]

[supersensitive]

Oh-- oh, well, yeah, okay. We don't have to. But it's, um-- you--

[frowns, not really sure how to say what he's thinking]

[oedipuswreck]

. . . Ruka?

[supersensitive]

...You said it's okay, but-- if... that's too much. Whatever you're thinking. This isn't, too...?

[squeezes him, a little...]

[oedipuswreck]

I'M SAYING I WANT IT

[supersensitive]

I know! But you're saying there's also-- things you want that would be too much, right?!

[oedipuswreck]

Not—well, I mean, if I want it, too much for—what . . .

[supersensitive]

...Okay-- you were upset. And when we started talking about it, you said, "I'm not alright in the head," and then you said something about "the things I've thought about doing," and then you said "I'm too young." So-- maybe we're not talking about the same thing, but it sounded like-- it wasn't something you were okay with...? So, I was asking-- if there's other things that aren't okay, is this?

[oedipuswreck]

N-no, this is fine, you're fine, you're perfect.

[supersensitive]

...I just-- want us to be happy.

[CUDDLES...]

[oedipuswreck]

[grabbing onto him, fiercely desperate]

I-I'm so happy, I'm happy, I love you and you make me happy, I—

[supersensitive]

No-- no, no, it's okay, I love you too, I'm happy-- I just-- needed to check, you know? That we only do things that we're both happy with, that-- things are okay. I love you.

[oedipuswreck]

W-why are you so . . . good?

[supersensitive]

...It's-- what you're... supposed to do? I'm not being-- special, I just... Obviously I want you to be okay.

[oedipuswreck]

That's . . . special to me.

[dryly]

[supersensitive]

I know. Just-- that's a low bar, you know? If I wasn't at least doing that much, I'd be an asshole and you would need to dump me.

[cuddles, a little teasing in tone, but also... serious...]

[oedipuswreck]

Um . . . well you wouldn't be you, then.

[supersensitive]

Well, yeah. Ah.

...I'm trying to say "don't let people be assholes to you because you're not used to them being nice" without being lecture-y about it.

[oedipuswreck]

. . .

Well, I know. I'm not actually a doormat. I'm pretty mean.

[supersensitive]

I know.

[grinning, actually, kissing his neck]

Mm, but-- sometimes I get worried. I don't know. Sorry, I know that's annoying.

[oedipuswreck]

[tilting his head back a little]

You smile about that . . .

[supersensitive]

I like it when you're mean.

[oedipuswreck]

[—lets out a startled noise]

What?