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Re: Day 400, evening

[oedipuswreck]

I—I love you . . . h-haah, I'm—

[flushed and dazed, tugging at Ruka's hair, helplessly]

Re: Day 400, evening

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I love you, I love you...

[mumbled against his skin, hand twisting around him, wet from Ruka's mouth]

Re: Day 400, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[lets out a faint, delirious moan, jerking up into Ruka's hand and tugging at his hair, coming again, his entire body shivering and tense, toes curled in the blankets]

Re: Day 400, evening

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[strokes him through it, moving up to curl against Shinji's side, kissing his shoulder lightly]

Re: Day 400, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[making a lot of small, hoarse noises of pleasure, trying to muffle himself against one hand, the other still tangled loosely in Ruka's hair. he lasts a while that time, messy and shivering, noises almost turning to overstimulated complaints by the time he sort of curls up helplessly next to Ruka, trembling]

Re: Day 400, evening

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[breathing... a couple shivery sighs at those noises, and then wraps his arm around him once he's finished, holding him close and kissing his forehead. his own voice is a bit scratchy, easier to pick up on from this close]

I love you... You sound amazing, you taste amazing. Shinji...

Re: Day 400, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[can't . . . even articulate a response to that, other than to just whimper a little]

[You're going to kill me . . . ]

Re: Day 400, evening

[supersensitive]

[laughs lightly, holding him close]

Mm, but it's true, so...

Re: Day 400, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[hoarsely, after a long few moments curled against him, managing to relax]

. . . R-Ruka, do you want—me to—

Re: Day 400, evening

[supersensitive]

[shakes his head]

Only what you want to do, Shinji. I could wait or take care of it myself... I just-- want you to feel good.

Re: Day 400, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[. . . nips Ruka's neck]

[I asked what you wanted.]

Re: Day 400, evening

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[shivers ///]

I-I'd... be happy with anything-- I want you to do what would feel good or be exciting for you.

Re: Day 400, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[bites again, a little more firmly, almost chiding]

Re: Day 400, evening

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[inhales sharply, closing his eyes]

L-look, you could just keep doing that and I'd be happy. Touch me, use your mouth, whatever, please...

Re: Day 400, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[mouth against Ruka's neck]

. . . I want everything. But—Ruka . . . wants it too. So it's not . . . weird. I just don't want to stop . . .

Re: Day 400, evening

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...I do. I want it, with you... I-it's not weird.

Re: Day 400, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[. . . slides his hands over Ruka's chest, sitting up a little and gazing down at him, smoothing his hands down over Ruka's stomach and shifting so he can sit between Ruka's legs, shivering]

It's—hard to understand what other people want . . . I've never been wanted like that? And I wanted—so much. I still do . . . But it's fine? It's normal? You want me . . .

Re: Day 400, evening

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[shivers a little reflexively at the feeling of Shinji's hands, but pretty distracted by the conversation, half sitting up so he can rest a hand on Shinji's arm...?]

...Of course I want you. What's wrong, Shinji...?

Re: Day 400, evening

[oedipuswreck]

I-I've been trying not to—feel this way!? [Like it was something I should be ashamed of.]

Re: Day 400, evening

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...Ah... No. I mean-- our situation was complicated, but-- being attracted to people, in general... Wanting to have sex and-- be loved and touched and touch others... That's normal?

Re: Day 400, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[half-covering his face with one hand, flushed]

Please—you keep . . . telling me to just do what I want, but I don't—I can't.

Re: Day 400, evening

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[sits up fully, reaching to take Shinji's hands]

...Shinji-- even if you say... "I want everything"-- if you're... so ashamed of it that you can't do it without being asked, I don't-- I'm not going to... tell you to. Whatever you want, it's okay. It's not wrong. You don't have to feel bad for wanting it. Asking if it's okay to do-- obviously, that's fine, and polite, but... you shouldn't feel ashamed of even just thinking about it.

Re: Day 400, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[gripping Ruka's hands tightly, leaning in to press his face against Ruka's shoulder]

I'm sorry. I'm fucked up. I want . . . [I want to be reassured that you want me.]

Re: Day 400, evening

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...I do. Everything's been... because I love you, because I want you... I wanted to see and hear you feel good. Not just your body, but emotionally, too...? I want... all of this to feel good for you. It's not wrong for you to feel that way.

Re: Day 400, evening

[oedipuswreck]

It feels so exposed.