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Re: Day 402, evening

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...I-it makes me nervous. I don't want to-- something you're uncomfortable with, or-- but I want you to get to figure out what you like and want to try... Sorry, I'm not being very cool?!

Re: Day 402, evening

[oedipuswreck]

O-oh—Ruka!

[tightening his arms around him]

N-no, no, no it's fine . . .

Re: Day 402, evening

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[CUDDLES just. really really red, embarrassed]

I'm-- being silly, because obviously you're going to ask me to show you things, but-- I want to do a lot of things with you, but I get worried thinking-- I don't want it all to be about what I like instead of you...

Re: Day 402, evening

[oedipuswreck]

U-um . . . Ruka.

There's—two things. One is, I'm—having a really hard time trying to think of something you'd like but I wouldn't?

Re: Day 402, evening

[supersensitive]

[h-huffs softly]

I-- I know. Um. What's the second thing...

Re: Day 402, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[bops Ruka on the head with one fist]

If I don't like something, I'll tell you.

Re: Day 402, evening

[supersensitive]

[CUDDLES AGAINST HIM, HIDING HIS FACE, and like. cracking up at himself even as he rambles]

I know! I know, but, like, what if-- I don't know, someday you're like "show me something," and I'm like okay, do you want to try giving each other a blowjob at the same time? And you're like GROSS, RUKA, I DON'T WANT MY FACE BY YOUR BUTT and it's bad. Or you say "show me something new" and I just really want to go down on you again so you can see what it feels like when someone swallows your come and likes it even though that's not really doing anything new and I'm boring? And, see, okay, look, what if you say something really sexy like "show me" and then I start being an idiot and ruin it, like right now? So, um. You see.

Re: Day 402, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[j-just starts to laugh as well, pressing his face into Ruka's hair]

You're—oh my god. You're actually a disaster.

[SOUNDS SO FOND]

Re: Day 402, evening

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I knowwwww. I'm sorry.

Re: Day 402, evening

[oedipuswreck]

Ruka . . . I love you. And everything is amazing. I just . . . I want to be able to touch you and kiss you and be close to you and see you look at me like I've really made you feel good—everything else is . . .

Re: Day 402, evening

[supersensitive]

...I love you too. Shinji...

Re: Day 402, evening

[oedipuswreck]

We also—can't both be neurotic all the time, we'd never get anything done.

Re: Day 402, evening

[supersensitive]

I think we're doing good taking turns.

[but smiles, a little apologetic, leaning to kiss at the corner of Shinji's mouth]

Re: Day 402, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[. . . turning to bump his nose against Ruka's cheek]

You don't have to—work to try to be perfect or anything like that.

Re: Day 402, evening

[supersensitive]

I want to be perfect. For you. But, um-- I know that's... stupid. And I feel like every time with you is perfect regardless of what you do, so I shouldn't get all worked up about myself...

Re: Day 402, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[flushes, swallowing hard]

S-seriously, Ruka, I just mean—you're already completely . . . I'm barely holding myself together with how great this is? I'm . . . h-having to stop for stupid discussions about where mouths should go might actually help?

Re: Day 402, evening

[supersensitive]

[l-laughs]

Yeah? See, I was secretly doing you a favor, obviously...

Re: Day 402, evening

[oedipuswreck]

I'll—try not to be too shy to suggest things, so it's not just . . . a-all up to you.

Re: Day 402, evening

[supersensitive]

...Okay.

[kisses him lightly, brief]

Thank you. For that, and, um, for not kicking me out of bed for ruining the mood.

Re: Day 402, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[catching his lower lip, lightly]

Mmh—the mood hasn't . . . really been ruined . . .

Re: Day 402, evening

[supersensitive]

Hmm, no?

[slips a leg between Shinji's, pressing against him, and kisses him again]

Re: Day 402, evening

[oedipuswreck]

[. . . shifts forward, grinding against Ruka's leg, deepening the kiss immediately and making a demanding noise]

Re: Day 402, evening

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[oh-- grinds down against him, kissing him intently and running a hand down his side with a soft moan]

Re: Day 402, evening

[oedipuswreck]

Ruka—yes . . . Ruka . . .

[in between kissing, messy and needy]

Re: Day 402, evening

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Mmm-- hey, let me...

[you know what we never actually got your pants off so let's fix that, drawing back just enough that he can undo Shinji's pants and start to work them and his underwear down his hips, kissing at his neck messily from the lower angle]