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...So it's still scary, huh.

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It's scary to hope. Like . . . to think that I know what I'm doing, or that I deserve what I have, or . . .

[Like, it feels like it would be the worst thing, to feel like things were going okay, that I was okay, that it was okay to be me, and then have all of that be proven wrong. Like, who were you fooling, Shinji?]

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...It's okay to be you, Shinji. But... it's also-- okay... or understandable, maybe... to be scared... I still get scared too.

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Of what . . .?

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Ah... Someday everyone will realize what a fuck-up I am and leave me? That... kind of thing...

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That's . . . not gonna happen.

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Well, hopefully not. But... that kind of thing. I don't really... feel like I deserve what I have either, so it makes it hard to accept, but... it's not something I want to give up, either? So I'll accept it anyway.

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[exhales slowly, winding his arms around him]

. . . it's not like I—want to be happy to hear that, but—

[It's nice. We understand each other.]

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[holds him close ♥]

Yeah. It'll-- be nice-- when we can both... not be afraid, but-- in the meantime, having someone who understands is good, too...

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I—I love you—I love you! I love you . . .!

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I-I love you...

[flushing, squeezing him]

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[laughs]

You're so great!

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What's that, suddenly...

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You've done so much for me.

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I-- want you to be happy...

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You've shown me that.

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...I love you.

[brushes his fingers over Shinji's cheek...]

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I know.

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[catches at the edge of his smile with his thumb, gazing]

You look happy.

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Look what my boyfriend just did for me . . .

[slides his hands down Ruka's chest, playing with the edge of one stocking]

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[s-smiles]

You have good ideas, after all...

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Y-you did like it right?

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I really liked it.

[stroking a hand down Shinji's side]

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Did you—want me to—sometime—?

[If you say no I won't be offended.]

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...Dress up?