No, I-- what? No. But-- what I'm saying is-- I know "I don't have any room to judge" isn't the best sentiment, but-- you're fine, Shinji. All of that-- that's how I coped with... the things that I went through. I-- turned it outwards and hurt other people and I was just... a really, truly awful person. I was really, really pathetic, and I never tried to be-- better, and-- so, when I look at you-- and the things you went through were so much worse than what I did-- and the way that you coped was to throw yourself into helping people, even when you didn't want to, even if it was for praise, and let yourself get hurt and manipulated because at least you were doing something and you still don't really-- get angry about how you were treated, not the way I would-- I think that's amazing. The things that you look at about yourself and think, "I'm messed up, I'm not worth anything," those are the things that-- I think are incredible about you. I don't want-- you to hate yourself or any of that, obviously, or throw yourself around for other people at your own expense, but-- that you went through so many bad things and that's what you became, instead of-- someone like me-- I think you're incredible.